57.
O my Jesus, You are the life of my life. You know only too well that I long for nothing but
the glory of Your Name and that souls come to know Your goodness. Why do souls avoid
You, Jesus? – I don‟t understand that. Oh, if I could only cut my heart into tiny pieces and
in this way offer to You, O Jesus, each piece as a heart whole and entire, to make up in
part for the hearts that do not love You! I love You, Jesus, with every drop of my blood,
and I would gladly shed my blood for You to give You a proof of the sincerity of my love.
O God, the more I know You the less I can comprehend You, but this “non comprehension” lets me realize how great You are! And it is this impossibility of
comprehending You which enflames my heart anew for You, O Lord. From the moment
when You let me fix the eyes of my soul on You, O Jesus, I have been at peace and
desired nothing else, I found my destiny at the moment when my soul lost itself in You, the only object of my love. In comparison with you, everything is nothing. Sufferings,
adversities, humiliations, failures and suspicions that have come my way are splinters the
keep alive the fire of my love for You, O Jesus.
My desires are mad and unattainable. I wish to conceal from You that I suffer. I want
(23) never to be rewarded for my efforts and my good actions, You Yourself, Jesus, are
my only reward; You are enough, O Treasure of my heart! I want to share
compassionately in the sufferings of my neighbors and to conceal my own sufferings, not
only from them, but also from You, Jesus.
Suffering is a great grace; through suffering the soul becomes like the Savior; in suffering
love becomes crystallized; the greater the suffering, the purer the love.
58.
+ One night, a sister who had died two months previously came to me. She was a sister
of the first choir. I saw her in a terrible condition, all in flames with her face painfully
distorted. This lasted only a short time, and then she disappeared. A shudder went
through my soul because I did not know whether she was suffering in purgatory or in
hell. Nevertheless, I redoubled my prayers for her. The next night she came again, but
I saw her in an even more horrible state, in the midst of flames which were even more
intense, and despair was written all over her face. I was astonished to see her in a
worse condition after the prayers I had offered for her, and I asked, “Haven't my prayers
helped you?” She answered that my prayers had not helped her and that nothing would
help her. I said to her, “And the prayers which the whole community has offered for
you, have they not been any help to you?” She said no, that these prayers had helped
some other souls. I replied, “If my prayers are not helping you, Sister, please stop
coming to me.” She disappeared at once. Despite this, I kept on praying.
After some time she came back again to me during the night, but already her
appearance had changed. There were no longer any flames, as there had been before,
and her face was radiant, her eyes beaming with joy. She told me that I had a true love
for my neighbor and that many other souls had profited from my prayers. She urged me
not to cease praying for the souls in purgatory, and she added that she herself would
not remain there much longer. How astounding are the decrees of God!
59.
(24) 1933. On one occasion I heard these words in my soul. Make a novena for your
country. This novena will consist of the recitation of the Litany of the Saints. Ask
your confessor for permission {probably Father Sopocko or Father Andrasz].
60.
I received permission at my next confession and began the novena that very evening.
Towards the end of the litany I saw a great radiance and, in the midst of it, God the
Father. Between this radiance and the earth I saw Jesus, nailed to the Cross in such a
way that when God wanted to look at the earth, He had to look through the wounds of
Jesus. And I understood that it was for the sake of Jesus that God blesses the earth.
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